Learning

Well, fall semester is over and I am sitting in a hotel in Maryland just a few blocks away from the University of Maryland. My goal: do sociological research and figure out a ministry that would benefit the university students. This includes observing things as well as carrying out conversations and "interviews" with some university students and the locals. This is extremely unnerving for me. It is against everything in my personality to go up to someone and have a conversation with them; maybe not even going up to them, but even when someone as simple as the waiter.
I have been struggling with this recently. If I am going to be in full-time ministry, then I need to be able to do this with confidence and with ease. I know that God has not called me to do this and not equip me. We were sitting in a unprofessional meeting tonight, and my professor said that he used to be the same way. This has been some wonderful news knowing that I am not the only person that has felt this way, and not that I need to change because something is wrong with me, but I can be changed by the grace and patience of God and only to better his kingdom. Even though I am still apprehensive about this class and the requirements, I have a new viewpoint, a new perspective on it. I pray that God will send the people and put them in my path so that I may interact with them on the level that I am currently at. I don't need to expect more out of myself than what I can give right now. Change will come as God continues to work on me and mold and shape me. I am his beloved...He sent his son to die for me...He won't abandon me :)
God is good all the time; and all the time God is good!